Divorced With Ruben Onsu, Sarwendah Worried He Can't Be A Perfect Mother

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JAKARTA - After divorcing from Ruuben Onsu, Sarwendah admitted that she was worried that she would not be the perfect mother for her three children. She remembers the beginning of her pregnancy which was colored by difficulties in getting pregnant.

"There is (worries), of course, especially when the first time I had a child, it was difficult at first until finally the IVF baby was tested several times," said Sarwendah, quoted by VOI from YouTube Kiky Saputri Official, Monday, October 14.

Born to a family that is sufficient and always pampered makes that concern arise in his mind.

"Then that's when I had the child I thought, can I be a good mother who can take care of my own children, while I'm the child who is really well pampered by my mom, I'm sure everything is available, so it's like my life is enough, it's really beautiful," said Sarwendah.

"If later I have my child I can give them a decent life, whether I can be there for them, there must be feelings like that," he said.

But in the end he thought that in the end all he could do was just continue to learn to be a mother like his children.

"Then until finally I learned like one thing I really didn't have the perfect one, we kept learning, because children continue to study every day too, we also nervous their questions," explained Sawendah.

The reason is, Sarwendah feels that there is no perfect household so it is not wrong to try to listen to other people's advice.

"So it's like learning because every household is different so we can't listen to A, how about it. Keep following other people can't. That's why we're listening from here, how good is it, we're absorbed, how can we apply it in our household which can be applied, which is like that," he said.

Now, after being a single mother, Sarwendah admits that her children are an encouragement in her life.

"But if for example I now feel like children, they end up being my strength, for me until now it's like studying but they are also encouraging me, so it's double," he said.