JAKARTA - Losing Ashraf Sinclair as her beloved husband made Bunga Cira Lestari have to fight hard to survive and get back up again. Long enough to choose to spend time with Noah Sinclair, BCL finally opened up about its struggle to rise.
It turns out that the struggle is not easy, especially since BCL also has to face changes due to the Covid-19 pandemic. After Ashraf died, BCL admitted that he had locked himself in the house and tried to make peace with everything.
"Because every corner of the house reminds me of my late beloved husband. Definitely. A Struggle because as a single mother, I also have to be mentally cared for having children. I have to be there for her," said BCL, quoted from the Prestige YouTube channel, Monday (11/1 / 2021). At that time, he tried to learn a lot to get to know himself better.
BCL feels he has fallen deeply. But he tried to keep getting up even though slowly. "Because chest pain is real, it is physically real. From there I learned how to continue BCL.
In the midst of grief, BCL must face a pandemic that makes all her work as a husband canceled. Because of that, the BCL team must sit down together to determine what concept we want to make, for this.
Even though work is delayed, BCL is grateful for being able to take breaks when he is in his good times. By relying on the mind and heart, BCL can adapt to all conditions.
"So I was like, 'Why don't we think outside the box? Why don't we have the passion to be able to do something bigger than before? If we try and it doesn't work, why don't we try something else?" said BCL.
The memory of Ashraf's hope also made him even stronger. "I remember what Ashraf wanted me to grow and how he believed that I actually had the power to do whatever I wanted with my life," said BCL.
Noah's toughness also strengthened him. "If my eyes are swollen, he will ask like 'Are you crying?' and I have to answer 'Yes. I miss your papa. I'm stressed about this.' So it's like we are friends now even though they are 10 years old, "said BCL.
Positive energy to rise up makes BCL able to write and tell whatever is in his brain. Finally, one of his writings became the lyrics for the song "12 Years of the Most Beautiful" which he released on July 26, 2020. "Even though it's a little bit self-assured, I don't think it was a necessary thing at that time. Because it's part of the healing process. Trying to accept, trying to understand," said BCL.
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