Angela Gilsha Tells The Impact Of Marco Panari's Departure 2 Years Ago

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JAKARTA - Actor Angela Gilsha shared her experience of becoming an agnostic adherent or someone who doubts about God's existence.

This began with the incident 2 years ago where his younger brother, Marco Panari, died.

At that time he felt that God was very evil to him and doubted God's presence because he allowed this tragic incident to happen to him and his family.

"So before, about 2 years, yes, after my sister died. I felt like, 'How come God is really bad, so he calls my sister suddenly' Basically, there are many questions from me, 'Is there really God? If God exists, why is there a disaster like that, why is there hunger, why is my sister called basically a lot of questions in my head," said Angela Gilsha in the Kedoya area, West Jakarta, Friday, October 27.

This ultimately made the 29-year-old woman decide to adhere to agnostics.

He said he believed in God, but chose not to want to know more about his figure.

"Then, so I decided to just agnostic. Yes, I believe in the Creator, but I don't want to know who it is, I want Allah, grandfather, who I am, I don't care at that time," he continued.

After going through the toughest time in her life, Angela explained that there was a feeling that made her miss going to church. Finally, after one year of learning more deeply about religion, Angela chose to be baptized.

"It's just that in the end I don't know why suddenly there was a call like, 'How come I miss the church. How come I suddenly want to go to church? What is this? What is this?'," he said.

"Finally, I've learned slowly and finally didn't feel like I've been studying a year in the Bible and finally it's time forappropriation and finally I was baptized back into my previous trust," concluded Angela Gilsha.