Vocal Disorder, Nadin Almost Gave Up Singing

Nadin Amizah (Instagram @salmaastia)

JAKARTA - Behind his appearance that always successfully hypnotize the audience, Nadin Amizah admitted that he had gone through a phase of depression due to the vocal disorder he had.

As is known, Nadin has just announced to fans that he was diagnosed with spasmodic dysphonia (SD) - a neurological disorder that affects the muscles of the larynx, causing the voice to sound strained, choked, or hoarse suddenly.

Nadin admitted that he had cried so much that he had the desire to end his music career in 2026.

"I've been crying a lot since yesterday because I feel like I can't sing anymore - this was before I knew the diagnosis - yeah, let's just sing it starting in 2026, we don't have to take the stage anymore. It was as bad as my thoughts yesterday," said Nadin, quoting her Instagram Story upload, Friday, January 9.

The frustration came because he felt he had lost the natural ability that had always been his main identity as a musician.

Nadin calls this condition a wake-up call from the Almighty. Until now, he admitted that he tended to take his voice talent for granted and treated it like a tool that would always function normally without extra care.

However, the difficulties he is facing now make him realize that vocal cord health is a legacy that can be taken at any time.

"This is like a real slap from Allah SWT, I feel it. Because until now I sing it like, yeah, like having a tool that I know how to use and I just do it," said Nadin.

"Now it feels like, 'Eh, this tool won't last forever, and you have to know how to use it properly'. And that's a real slap in the face," he added.

The deepest sadness for the singer of "Bertaut" is the loss of enjoyment in singing. If before singing was a fun activity, now every note that comes out feels like a heavy job that requires full concentration.

This made him feel depressed every time he had to get ready to get on stage to entertain the audience.

"I'm starting to lose the pleasure of singing like that. Because I used to like singing so much - it's easy, it feels like breathing - but now it's hard and I have to make a lot of effort, it feels like work. Usually I just have to do it, now it's like I have to think and do it," he said.

However, Nadin has now reached the stage of acceptance. He decided to be transparent to his fans about his true condition.

For him, this difficult time is no longer considered a painful phase, but rather a momentum to learn vocal techniques from scratch in order to minimize mistakes when performing.

"I think this is a phase of learning from zero again. Think I've never been able to sing before, think my body is not used to singing. How sad is it? It's really sad. But if you have to make an effort to do something I like, why not? I prefer to start again but from zero, it's okay," he concluded.